Friday, September 30, 2005
i have this test b4..but as time goes by our thinking change so the results vary too...
| How You Are In Love |
 You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.
In relationships, you tend to be a bit selfish.
You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.
You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.
You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard. |
| How You Life Your Life |
 You have a good sense of self control and hate to show weakness.You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly.Some of your past dreams have disappointed you, but you don't let it get you down. |
How Do You Live Your Life?
3:59 pm
i have this test b4..but as time goes by our thinking change so the results vary too...
| How You Are In Love |
You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.
In relationships, you tend to be a bit selfish.
You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.
You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.
You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard. |
| How You Life Your Life |
| You have a good sense of self control and hate to show weakness.You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly.Some of your past dreams have disappointed you, but you don't let it get you down. |
How Do You Live Your Life?
3:59 pm
ah hock said something that made me nod my head in agreement during the lec on wed...
"因为寂寞所以找寻爱情。若两个人在一起还感到寂寞，那就变成忧郁。”
maybe u'll disagree that it's not necessary that u are loney that's y u look for love or u look for love becos u're loney... but if u're not lonely then y do u need to find someone to share your happiness and unhappiness??? maybe it's not call loney..then wat is it call??? u tell me...
maybe that's y i'm enjoying my life right now...busy life..fulfilling life... have so many projects to do so many tests n quiz to study for n presentations to get ready for..i'm so busy till i dont have time to think of other things...so can 胡思乱想 less...
and i seem to have many 贵人 lately treating me this n that... heehehe...so happy...even my tutee becomes so guai1 nowadays...no longer doze off...hmm better dont say too early...
3:30 pm
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. The sourness in the heart can't be describe by using a lemon. It's like 100 rotten sour lemon. Sourness to the extreme limit.
the heart ache is so strong that I can't stand it. It's like a heavy weighted stone on my chest. I couldn't breath. Wanted to shout but can't. Tears rolled down & I broke down & cry.-adapted from "Leaf'S depARtuRe iS becaUse of winD's puRsuiT oR becauSE tRee never asks?"
dont ask me how painful it was... you will never know unless you have tried it...
5:55 pm
Monday, September 26, 2005
你怕黑吗？如果你怕黑，那你不是白白的活了吗?
hehehe..heard this from tv...
so it's been 1day... still cant believe that i saw him at imm!!! then i peek into his car and saw the textbook which i also hv!!! hmm..maybe can ask to meet him in ntu someday...must tell weixian that too!!! haaahahah...lalalala...he brightened up my day...yeah!!!
8:27 pm
Saturday, September 24, 2005
寂寞是当你身旁有很多人，却没有被爱的感觉。
my latest work
4:41 am
Thursday, September 22, 2005
recharging...recovering... fine...
full hse is nice...the songs are even nicer..yep...
my mkting grp is cute...we hv our ups and downs...but i like it...we are slack but we are fun too... maybe we are a big grp with both genders...so makes things easier as we can look things at diff perspective and come up with great ideas... yepyep.... looking forward to our farm... oh and we're planning to go overseas le...maybe just m'sia...nothing is confirm yet.... maybe can get more pple to go too..that would be fun...
my tutee got 12/100 for math...i dont know wat to say...and yes diamond i'm not ashamed to tell the whole world...and no..i dont need and dont want to pass her to u...i still think my tutee can make it..just too lazy to even think...haiz...cant scold...dont scold she doesnt listen...haiz...i'm tired... gonna take a nap now..later maybe there's ling gan again... hehehehe...oh..ntu cac is organising talentime-alike competition soon...it's already open for registeration..pple who wants to take part in a original composition contest(write ur own songs) can join k...yep...btw i've joined their subb-comm...but dont know a single thing yet..going to meet them this sunday..hope they are nice pple...
7:57 pm
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
in my previous entry i wrote
喜欢一个人不难，难的是如何去爱她。
爱一个人不难，难的是如何相处。
相处如果很难，就要学会放下。
i read thru them again...realised that i missed out something
喜欢一个人不难，难的是他也喜欢你。
爱一个人不难，难的是他也懂得爱你。
听着圣杰的《我懂了她》， 我被感动了， 顿时间眼泪盈眶。 但眼泪，就如阿美所唱的《哭不出来》，停留不前。 我继续赶我的报考。
他们说创作者一定要尝尽酸甜苦辣才会有优秀的作品。要经历挫折，面对考验才能有创作灵感。原来是真的。
我没事。真的没事吗？看样子我需要时间冷静。让时间停顿。不知为何，我很想好cailing，想跟你分享, 想听你的劝导。
明天要呈现报考了。我还一头雾水， 真是残。
读了我刚写的东西。还真是东西。东一点，西一点， 看得出我的思绪很乱。
当你看到我再这用华语时， 你就知道我很有feel。 所以才会用话语，希望能够更准确地把我的心情表达出来。
这几天太有墨水了。不要浪费。期待我下一个作品哟。
1:04 am
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
喜欢一个人不难，难的是如何去爱她。
爱一个人不难，难的是如何相处。
相处如果很难，就要学会放下。
came up with these few sentence at 3.45am....it's qt meaningful actually..think abt it ba... and hopefully he'll find the ans he's looking for...
as for me..i think i'll treat myself to waffle instead..
3:55 am
Monday, September 19, 2005
i miss dianyun...
ok b4 u anyhow come to a conclusion let me finish my story...
i was taking 179 to boon lay when there's this guy with his gf beside me..the guy's voice is very similar to dianyun...and then his gf was hitting him...reminds me of his gf abusing him...hahahaa..maybe nt physically but monetary wise la... haaahaha... it's just my opinion la..cos he doesnt mind... anyway that was when i was reminded of dianyun...realised i havent seen him for abt half year le??? since the day results was announced ba... nv seen him since then...sometimes i'll even forget he's in my jc class...
bad??? i dont think so..it's him who doesnt bother to keep in contact with us... so...
10:47 pm
she irritates me again.. so what u're busy now..we're doing serious work k...u hv no comments when i suggest ideas..all along it's me who r coming up with the ideas..wat did u do??? yes u got ur senior to talk to us..so??? it's nt ur effort... u din even come up with ideas..just kept talking abt wat others did n so on... we cant use others ideas!!! i tot u so many times le!!! u think i want to discuss our proj at this unearthly time??? crazy.. it's becos we've alot to do yet no time to meet up...y cant u understand this simple logic??? khim seng ask me ren..yar i ren..i even entertain u and tries to understand ur view n get something out of it...still not good enough for u???
hate it when pple ask me so how...usually i'm very good tempered lor..but she made me lose my temper twice in less than 2mths!!! oh manz...i'm just going to ignore her rubbish...idiot!!!
breathe in breathe out...going to slp...
1:02 am
Sunday, September 18, 2005
looking at blog... it's call a whole new world... the reason being i want to start a new life in this new environment... but so far there isnt any life yet...
though sch life is hectic n tiring but i sort of like it..minus the exam part...seriouls i wouldnt mind if the exam is exchanged with report...i prefer report though it means more time with the com...but hey..report is can crap ur way but exam...can crap too la..but the pressure is bigger...
will be fully booked till next mon..unless someone forget abt fri waffle treat... i fan lian with him if he forgets...will i??? haiz...capricorn likes to geng1 alot...that's bad...stop genging jasmine...
suppose to be home on fri nite..but my dad cant fetch me so i decided to stay for another night...i msg my mum telling her i'm nt going home n she replied.." u better find a bf with a car.." i was so shocked when i read this msg...nowadays my mum seems to be encouraging me to find a bf... ask me to dress up la... ask me dont be shy to talk to pple la(guys esp)... ask me y i'm not going out on sat with friends la... as me how many guys in my class la...dont know whether to laugh or cry...
feel very great as i added an inventory!!! esp so when it's good n cheap..real cheap..u guys will nt believe it when i tell u the price... if there's a chance i'll chow it to u...a blue lacy short skirt..so sweet..feel so young in it... hahaa...
1st time in my life someone told me he likes me alot... it's so sweet..cant bear to let go of his hands..nearly cried as he went home... i'm going to love hime even more... he kept looking at me even though i'm nt paying attention to him.. he reminds me of my childhood years... he is none other than my dear darren!!!
the car was on ECP and we passed by the shenton area where all the tall buildings are... suddenly i remember that when i was young i would always look at those buildings as the car drove past them..i aspire to work in one of those tall buildings...esp the one with brownish red exterior..if u pass by ECP u shld know which one... maybe that's y i'm in business now..yes i wanted to be on the top of the buiding...working as some top management pple... wear branded clothes n take branded bag n heels..put on makeup n eat in posh restaurants... that's when i was small..u find all these fascinating..but as u grow up or as i gro up, i just want something simple... dont mind being a hsewife seriously..but a well-kempt hsewife that is... ok i still want those nice clothes n stuff but no need to be branded la..u pay a price for it..price as in money n time n many other stuff la...u backstab n come up with strategy in order to climb up..haiz..it's getting disgusting..but capricorn can geng1 well..so maybe i'm suitable..hahaaaa...see how it goes la..dont wanna plan too far ahead...
1:31 am
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
yeah completed my accounting project finally!!! no more stock options..no more footnotes..no more raffles holdings..no more apex-pal..no more annual reports... no more caiwei, mitchell n yongding..at least for the next 4 days or so..cos we still hv the presentation... haiz... sianz... however i have to start on my FM project tml le...haiz..it's really one project after another..soon i'll be doing my mkting project..that will be a real headache lor...
suddenly i feel that msn is a powerful n scary tool of communication... news spread very fast... and pple may know abt ur trails even without ur knowledge... i've lost my ability to communicate with pple effectively..my brain work much faster than my mouth... that's y u can find me talking n talking then suddenly stray off n followed by silence...cos i'm already thinking abt the another topic while i'm still talking abt the current topic...
i dont want to eat ice cream le..i want potato chips... heehehee...cravings...
i also want more inventory in mywardrobe... haahaahaa..yar inventory..they are considered as my asset k... haiz...but no mood to shop..not when projects are on my mind all the time... money shouldnt be a prob since i din spend much the past few weeks... yar..i'm thrifty... learn from me ba yongxin...hahahaa...
6:30 pm
Sunday, September 11, 2005
we had our dinner n my bro wanted to buy something for breakfast so we went to the bakery la..so my bro chose wat he want le my dad gave my maid money to pay for it..so she went into the shop to pay la..we waited for a while n assume she's came out already so we went to the carpark.. when we got to our car i turned back i see...my maid missing!!!! cos usually she will walk behind us mah so i tot she walking very slowly...but still no sight of her..wahahaaa...earlier while my bro was choosing the bread my mum ask my maid if she cant find us how is she going to go home... she say aiya will not get lost... haaahaa...
so my bro went to look for her lor..she was standing outside that bakery..heheee..then when she got into the car my mum was laughing then ask her where did she ran to... my maid say "i din run away lor..u hide la..u hor..." hahaaa..we were all laughing in the car..... then my mum ask again.."so how u plan to go home if we cant find u?" then my maid says..." i still hv the change after buying the bread..i can take taxi go back.." wahahahaaa....so smart ah...wahahaaa....
8:29 pm
Friday, September 09, 2005
我懂了她
作词:姜忆萱 作曲:蔡伯南
我好想念她 现在好吗
旧画面还在记忆里挣扎
那年的夏 结束时说的话
一直不能放下
她说爱啊 爱很伟大
所以才能让她勇敢离开
当时的我 不明白为什麽
直到时间白了头发
我懂了她 她不让眼泪落下
所以让爱结束在最美的刹那
她的眼里进了沙 她算了吧 够了吧
我懂了她 不要我为她牵挂
她说天空很大要自由飞翔
没有结果的爱情 她放了吧 走了吧
不想要彼此受伤 她那麽傻
i was listening to this song at 1.12am... cailing sent me this song a few months back..at that moment i tot the melody is nice but din pay attention to the lyrics..listened to this song fora few months le..and i only realise how nice the lyric is... maybe this is much diff from wat it was a few months back..so i can relate better to the lyrics...
不过我没那么伟大。我放下是为了我自己。应该这么说吧，他从来没拿起，所以不需要我让他飞翔。我只不过是在施放自己罢了。就如歌里所提到的吧，因为爱，因为不想流眼泪，所以让爱结束在最美的刹那。 这样一来，回忆还是很美好。
1:09 am
Thursday, September 08, 2005
每个人都会有自己的问题。最重要的是懂得自己解决。 不懂得解决就要懂得找人帮你解决。
many pple seems to be feeling very low nwdays..maybe it's the weather..maybe it's all the disasters happening around us, natural or man-made... rea the ppers just now...dengue is spreadingvry quickly... it as become so serious that all hospitals are ostoning those not so urgent operation so hatthee ill be morebds for those patients down with dengue... scary... i began towory for njcians... remember that vacant building beside ta block??? oh manz... it's a breeding groud lor... juniors must becareful... and those living in halls also la... must slp more la..dont always slp so late..then sick le so kelian...
mid-autumn coming soon..acc to teewei it's on a sunday.. celebration anyone??? haahaa... till now i can still remember when i was p6 i hv to look at other kids playing with candles n lanterns while i've to stay at home to study for the next day eng psle exam... sadness...
postpone my tuition today n pon all the lectures... it was raining in the morning la.. just wanna lie on my bed..so at 7.20 i stepped out of my room n shouted "i dont want to go to school today!" and went back to slp..hahahaaa... scare my maid will wake me up mah cos she knows i thur hv class... so i slept all the way till 10.30...cool... love this slacking process... but 1 day is enough la.. maybe make it 2... hmm i want to go shopping leh...and hv this craving for ice cream... call my mum to buy home but she refused... hmm..later i go down n buy... lalalaaa... and i thought i could claim my swensen today...sianz... maybe sat i can claim it.. there's swensen at airport!!! okok...for those who dont know y i'm going to airport it's all thanks to my accounting grpmates..yes yx ur bro included... cos there's 2 girls who live in the east side so they suggested airport... i stare at them... then i expect ur bro to say something against the idea..but he actually said "ok lor..i've direct bus from my place too"...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!... argh...
1:04 pm
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
tml is accounting quiz..though it's just 5%..but still...been reading the same lec notes from 6pm till 8pm...haiz..too slow..but cant help it..there's so much shows to watch lor.. 4 to 5 there's this xu nailin n zeng guocheng show...very funny n entertaining... 5.20 to 6.50 has yong wang zhi qian..this horse racing show... then 7 till7.50 has da changjin..though getting abit sianz le..cos all the madams die le.. then 8 till8.50 is jing zhi yu nie!!!!! like finally... but i prefer canto version..watched b4 le..but still want to watch again...9pm till 9.50 has this scy hk drama by guo jingan..nice too...heheee..then 10 has kangsi lai le and the tan yaowen show too...at the same time...yes... and taozi the tao se dan bai zhi...yar so u see i'm fully booked by the tv all the way till 11.30pm....which means no time to study..want to give up some shows..but after weighing them...cant do it...all are good productions... oh manz..can u pple out there stop producing such nice shows??? it's distracting...
i seriously need someone to study with me... cos the txtbook has no ans...so need someone to do the questions with me n compare ans... but all the old friends take diff modules leh... must kao new friends le..but as i mentioned earlier... cant communicate with girls..left guys..only know 3 guys from all my tut... 1 is yx bro which is out cos he's yr 2...the other bear bear always so busy... left only one... but... haiz.... kao zi ji...
read thru my previous enntry... i sound so depressed..hahaa..but no worry la..i'm not that serious yet... just fa lao sao only... no more superstar..no more junyang...n dont ask me to watch their concert...dont want to waste money...haahaa
9:57 pm
Monday, September 05, 2005
and i think i know y i cant communicate with most girls le.. cos i feel that they are easily offended..so i'll mind my words.. for guys..i can just anyhow scold them la joke with them..i dont care whether they will be hurt or not... in short.. i dont care abt my image la..hahahaa...strange ah..aiya..actually i've a secret... i'm a guy la..haha... pian ni men hen jiu le... okok..kidding...
11:02 pm
i'm lost... lost my direction..give me a compass...
i've lost... lost my ablility to communicate... pass me the mic...
seriously lor..felt so bad during mkting..my grp screwed up for presentation.. now i understand y u pple say she's very weird..really weird..her logic all wrong... like i said b4..those pple whom i've gd 1st impression of will not get along well with me in the end... where are the bad 1st impression pple??? so far only identified one...
anyway i was saying abt the presentation..really paiseh lor..din dare to raise my head for the rest of the lesson... i was so unprepared and perform so badly..where's my art of crapping???
getting easily impatient with pple nowadays...esp the females... not that i want to offend the females out there... but seriously..i always dont get them..ok maybe this applies to those new friends only... everything is too fast le.. but one thing is i still can communicate effectively with guys.. in fact i can read their mind... strange..i shld be a guy...argh!!! i just want my tv n nothing else... i can watch tv from morning till midnight..maybe even 24hrs..i can seriously watch everything n anything...like those china shows on emperors la..i like lor..hk drama korean n jap drama... local series... education documents... variety shows both taiwan n local... music videos..eng movies...aiya..anything also can watch..just nt finance report..dont understand y i'm doing biz..can i switcht to com studies???
been very naggy n moody..dont know y..stress??? haha chiao says maybe it's pms.. hahaha..maybe..nv thought of it leh... hahaa..haiz..i think it's the combination of stress n pms ba.. cos so much work to be done yet i'm still glue to the tv... really lor.. haiz.. think i belong to the entertainment circle...hahaaa..i'm tml's superstar!!! hahhaaa..okok dont puke.. still puke...dont ask for my signature in future hor..
10:27 pm
Sunday, September 04, 2005
ate 4 oysters today!! yeah..happie...but my dad says he stomachache leh..he ate 1.5..i ate 4 leh... still ok leh... think the oyster like me..cos i appreciate them..yep...must love wat u eat...ok..ok...
11:57 pm
hmm as requested by tee wei... hahaa...
so wat's up for me???
on mon was ntu 50th anniversary..went to watch the performance... really hate to be surrounded by ah tiongs... not being discriminating la..but..they really lor..best le... the guys are so ungentlemenly..haiz..and they dont shave...haha..kept insisting that guys must shave...must remember k... fir was great...thot jianming lao shi was cool..but looking at him closer..he's qt ugly...but u cant deny his musical talents... 所以说老天给你一些也会不给你一些...
another highlight of the week is thur pinguan's concert ba... it was a big follish mistake on my part la..sorry k... stop teasing me abt that incident le..我也很想去indoor stadium k... but... just do with it la..ntu audi better than nothing..and we can hear 1st class voice lor..pinguan's voice really superb!!! i tot he play cd..but no la..it's live singing..100%...
so superstar also come to an end..i'll miss junyang (i cant believe that i cant find the i mag with junyang as front page..only left with kelly n kelvin lor..angry!) and i'll miss derrick too..he's so cute... and weicong also..hahaa..cute guys... anyway no matter who wins the overall winner is mediacorp..and maybe singtel... imagine all those phone calls..$0.60 per call leh..the amt of money...wah!!!
so now i'm preparing for tml's mkting presentation..hate it... the tutor seems to be picking on watever i say...really siao ah..(i think only sally will understand this..)sai la...
it's been along time since i met chen lao..ermm actually only abt 5 to 6 mths la..but really wish to meet him for a meal to chat..the last time we had a real chat was 1 yr n 3 days ago.. that's was teachers' day... i told him i want to study maritime studies...but now..i'm doing business... dont know whether i made the right choice or not... haiz..better dont think too much..
i dont want to regret only now...有时想太多未必是件好事。。。
10:13 pm
